Very very long time no blog

Si bey koo bo write blog liao. For quite a while I lost the interests to blog, but somehow, today met a couple of pretty ladies who writes (and still writing blogs, I think); it prompted me to start writing again.

Well well well... Life has been ok, somewhat boring, monotonous; everyday work - balik kampong, work - balik kampong. I guess this is what people call stable lifestyle. Still miss those days when my back was against the wall, falling down into the dark pit of despair or having the unbearable sense of euphoria and bursts of sudden energy and excitement. Gone are the days when I listen to no one, with no sense of commitments or responsibilities, whatsoever. Heh... Don't know I should carry on with this boring life or not. For once, I feel that I am an extra in this planet, there's nothing I'm offering to anybody, or anybody can offer anything to me since I'm contented already.

Going back to the two pretty ladies, one of them is a Christian, same like Amirhossein. They were listening to Gospels. Hmm... Nice to meet people who are religious, as long as they do not try to convert me to what they believe. Smoking my favourite Pomegranate Shisha, I wandered off into my own world.

It is indeed wonderful how two people of different backgrounds and cultures can connect instantly whilst talking about religions. It is a topic I usually shun as it is sensitive. Is there really a god? Whenever people says god, they always look up into the sky. Is he really 'up' there? Or somewhere else? Every culture and race has their own religion, or god. Everyone of them claim that their Almighty created the world, the planet and the universe. I am wondering sometimes, did god (whoever they are) really created all these? Or human created gods who will look like ourselves - those tribesmen's gods are made to look like them, Indian gods are either Indians or some animals that give them the most, Christians' gods look like ang moh (I've read he is actually dark-skinned), Taoist will have the Chinese-looking Jade Emperor, Tua Pek Kong...... Ain't they look like the very people who worship them? Which god is the real one since we have to choose the correct one so that we will be forgiven and spared from hell. Beats me man. Totally clueless. The more I think, the more hair I drop. It must be the punishment from a certain god.

Also, why should there be hell? Since gods are omnipotent, the perfect being with supreme powers who is capable of creating endless wonders in the world and paid attention to all fine details. Why can't he make us perfect too? So that we will have all the emotions, senses and feelings to enjoy or suffer when we are humans, yet incapable of wrongdoings. The seven deadly sins, ten commandments - why should they be there in the first place? Might as well don't put in those negative characters in human, then don't need to threaten them with hell. Scriptures, bibles, quran..... will be much shorter, simpler, easier to lead life. I don't know how hell looks like, but I do not want to find out and be there eternally. Evil should be weeded out. Having hell as a threat is unfair.

After so much scary thoughts, brain gets tired. Need to get back to my Sheesha. Heh...

Hmmm...... Managed to scrape through this week with minimum work, tonnes of heartattacks and many memories I wanna keep for life. It wasn't the most eventful week, but it has many nailbitting times.

First of all, I've decided to pass over parts of my work to my partner, who has been in the comfort zone these few years. Though work has been relatively ok so far, somehow it dawned on me that they can't just always depend on me alone. Whenever I went overseas, I always returned to ceiling high paperwork. A day to David's office convinced me that my working pattern is wrong. In his office, work is divide out equally among the workers and bosses. Everyone contribute and deliver their part. Anyway, my partner is ok with it. However, he created a mess which was patched up before it grew too big. Honestly, I was expecting bigger problems. He did well for the first time. Let's hope he will get used to the pressure of being in the frontline.

I got to know her better; she wasn't the person I thought she was when I first met her. Instead of being cold and serious, she is in fact bubbly and caring girl. Such a joy to be around with. One thing that I am surprised is that she can't wait to grow up. There are so many things that she want to do. It is good to have dreams but she is putting herself under pressure. Maybe it is because of the way she was brought up, the expectations from her family or whatever. I wish I can help her in some ways.

Hmmm...... Time to snooze........

Damn long no blog

Haven't been blogging for damn long time liao. The past couple of months had been turbulent and still is turbulent. Hopefully a break will come soon. Need one badly. For the past 2 weeks, I'd flown to 4 different countries. Sometimes I was confused on where I was and where I should go next. Work hasn't been the smoothest lately. There were hiccups and I was, honestly, kind of overwhelmed by the problems. They are more or less settled for now. But I couldn't put a lid on it, it will definately come back later.

Met 'G' for coffee a few days ago. He is going through a bad patch too. Probably worse off than me until he had to borrow from loan shark. I offered to settle the loan for him, but he declined. Anyway G, I'll keep the offer open. Should you need help, you know where to shout. No point shaking up family.

Will be back to blog again soon. Need some place where I can channel all my frustrations out. That's all for today.

Fever Gone!!!!!!

Finally, the fever that was torturing me for the past few days is gone. Haven't been this ill for a while. I do get fever every now and then, but not this kind of high fever tag-teamed with several others like sore-throat, cough, running nose/nose bleed and gastric flu. Anyway, all gone now. Even managed to make a trip to KL for a quick meeting with all those with me.

The meeting was good. Short and sweet, striaght to the point affair. Had Bah Kut Teh there too. The soup is different from Singapore's. Maybe the grass is greener at the other side, but I prefer the Bah Kut Teh there. The soup is aromatic, rich and tasty. Meat is tender and slide off the bone with a gentle tug. Even the Chinese tea is good. Jia ba ba and went back to hotel to snooze.

Came back and pretty girl Ruby was heading back to Vietnam for a few days. Hmmm...... Sad to see her go. Will probably see her next month. Hope I won't think of her too much. Heh........

I'm still around!!!!!!

Hey guys, I'm still around, not under a cement-mixer somewhere. Ok, I haven't called or emailed or write blogs as often as before. Got a call from Julian, kena fucked by him for missing his anniversary celebration. Yep, I did forget, but hey, it's your wedding anniversary. Why should I remember your wedding anniversary? Why do you want to celebrate with me?

Been busy lately lah, my friends. Even right now writing this blog, I am on a business trip. Not dancing somewhere with tube-top girls on the bar counter or polishing off bottles of Blue Label. Smoked 5 cigars last night. Not because I'm stressed or in high spirits. But because I was busy warding off mosquitoes from sucking me dry. Was in a coal mine - it was too late to drive back to city so decided to spend a night there, in the workers' hostel. They were kind enough to give us the best room, but when I entered the room, I wanted to shoot myself. No air-con (yeah, i'm pampered), they uses oil lamp (which gives off black fumes and stinky smell), the mattress is older than my grandfather's underwear, last but not least, I could see mosquitoes flying around the room! I've been through worse in the army, but that was donkey years ago. I tried sleeping, constantly bitten by bed bugs and mosquitoes, those evil motherfuckers, kept buzzy at my ears the whole time. Woke up cover with sweat and blood on my back, my blood, squashed quite a few bed bugs. Started smoking a Partagas Serie D.4; it chased away the blood suckers. Proceeded outside for fresh air and lighted up another H.Upman Magnum 50. I was bearly 1 inche into the cigar, I heard dogs howling away at not so far distance. Better quickly go back to the hostel, don't wanna be Pontianak's supper or Hantu Tetek's toyboy. Finished off the smoke yet still feeling wide awake. Decided to smoke the night away. Burnt a grand total of 5 sticks and they are Partagas Serie D.4, H.Upman Magnum 50 (2 sticks), Lusitanias, Cohiba Esplendidos and a crap stick of Sir Winston. Dozed off for a short moment only to be waken up by Sammy, my guide. Time to head back. Smelled like a chimney and mouth tasted like something died in it. Anyway, going back to comfy hotel bed. Need a soak in the bathtub and 2 hours of power nap. Meeting Sabrina for dinner tonight, should be a long one as she wanted to ask about some investment thingy which I don't know. Fine.

Gonna crash now. Eyelids getting really heavy.

Sammo's Wedding

8th July 2006 - Sammo's wedding in Penang; I'll remember this date well. This is the date that my asshole caught fire. It was the first time in Penang I had a bad stomachache. No, I didn't eat anything wrong. It was all because of the 'sisters' guarding the gate at Angeline's (Sammo's wife) home. Not only they got a fat angbao from the very generous groom, but they also made life extremely difficult for the 'brothers'. Well, we were there for Sammo, anything they asked for, we'll do it. They served us our 'breakfast' on a platter. The Brothers of the Leaves were assigned to undertake the first task - and that's Shawnie-boy, Gerald and myself. We saw 3 shot glasses, some pepper cocktail. Fine, should be a piece of cake. We downed it without much protest. It burned all the way from the tongue through the throat down to the very bottom of my tummy. Years of Tom Yam Kung helped, not for long though. Shawnie-boy puked outside the house after about 30 minutes. Gerald had several bouts of tummy cramps, cold sweat and constant stomach churning. Me, trying to act hero, put up a brave face. Made several visits to the porcelain throne for ass-burning rituals. We would gladly take the sufferings for Sammo, but little did we know that it was his own blood sister who concocted the deadly potion. Wah lau eh! We are helping your brother ley! And you like that terkan us. Never mind........ For some strange reasons, I took a lot of pictures in Penang. But somehow there are only 6 or 7 in my MMC. Anyway, wanna show a couple of pictures for those who missed out the fun.









Sorry, this is the best group picture I have. For those people whose face is not in it, I apologise. Well, most of us weren't ready for the shot. And don't ask me why my mouth is flattened because I don't know too. Must be trying hard to keep the fart in. Noticed the awful looking tie? Take a closer look.









The tie is $#%@& ugly man. The married couple wanted the brothers to put it on for the morning and afternoon session, sure we'll do it. And they graciously gave it to us as a momento. Thank you very much! But the chambermaid can have it, I just wish she knows what it is. Finally, a decent picture from my camera. Hmmm........ Maybe because the ladies weren't in it. Heh........ Check it out.









There was a pain in the butt, that's why I had to sit sideways. Now I know what it really means when people say 'pain in the ass'. Now, ready for bed.
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Moving on slowly........

What have I done? I've pissed off my mum by not eating her food. She spent the whole day preparing it and I really should give her more face. It is an expression of love and affection when mothers prepare food for us. I simply do not have the appetite. Not feeling that well lately. Now she refused to talk to me much. Sigh!

Went to the law firm to return something. Well, it is a relief. I know of my directions now; on where I stand and everything has been sorted out. It is sad but it is good too. At least I can move on. Things do not always turn out well, I still have faith........

Bernard has been rushing me to go to Thailand. Projects are still on hold there. Time is ticking by. Even someone with his kind of experience is nervous about it, I should be even more anxious. Things are definately not going on well there. I do not believe in doing things when my heart is not in it - if I really do fly over, my mind would still be here. Furthermore, would it solve the problem? May have to talk to a few people to pull strings. Not sure it would help, but worth a try. With pressure ever mounting and not really coping well. Hopefully, it will pass quickly and let me tide this through in shorter time. Not very certain what the next step is. Gotta keep my head on my shoulders and tread with great care.

Hmmm........

What have I done? I've pissed off my mum by not eating her food. She spent the whole day preparing it and I really should give her more face. It is an expression of love and affection when mothers prepare food for us. I simply do not have the appetite. Not feeling that well lately. Now she refused to talk to me much. Sigh!

Went to the law firm to return something. Well, it is a relief. I know of my directions now; on where I stand and everything has been sorted out. It is sad but it is good too. At least I can move on. Things do not always turn out well, I still have faith........

Bernard has been rushing me to go to Thailand. Projects are still on hold there. Time is ticking by. Even someone with his kind of experience is nervous about it, I should be even more anxious. Things are definately not going on well there. I do not believe in doing things when my heart is not in it - if I really do fly over, my mind would still be here. Furthermore, would it solve the problem? May have to talk to a few people to pull strings. Not sure it would help, but worth a try.

With pressure ever mounting and not really coping well. Hopefully, it will pass quickly and let me tide this through in shorter time. Not very certain what the next step is. Gotta keep my head on my shoulders and tread with great care.